I’m just sitting here reflecting on how good God is. My eyes can’t hold back the tears as I think about what He’s done for me. Over the past couple of days He has spoken to me in such a way that I know it’s His voice. He’s showing me that I don’t have to fear because He’s right there with me. For so long I’ve felt so unworthy of His love and blessings, fearing I would mess things up or disappoint Him. Yet He continues to shower His blessings upon me to teach me how to receive. He’s showing me that I am whole and worthy of all He has in store for me. During this healing process I’ve felt like I’m not “there” yet. I don’t even know where “there” is, but figured I would know once I arrived. I felt like only then would I be deserving of His promises. But God said, “Not so. My timing is not your timing. I will bless you when I get ready.” I don’t know what tomorrow has in store, but I’m so thankful for what He’s done today.
I encourage you to thank Him for the progress you’ve made this far. Thank Him for the work He’s begun in you. Know that you don’t have to work for God’s blessings, He will send them whenever He gets ready. Just trust Him.
You know what? When I finally accepted that my marriage was ending and heading for divorce I started thinking about the reality of being single again. After 10 years of distance from the dating scene I wasn’t looking forward to diving back in. I told myself that I didn’t want to date and thought it would be nice if I could just be introduced to the man purposed for me. It sounded good, but when my loneliness kicked in I started to entertain the idea of just going out on a date to enjoy male companionship. However, the other day while in the shower, God said to me “If it doesn’t serve a purpose, you don’t need to do it. If you do it anyway, then you’re just trying to fill a need.” He was right. If I was to go out on a date with a guy right now, it would only be to fill a need and would be counterproductive to my healing process. Basically it would be pointless. This process is difficult but I HAVE to learn how to be content with me before moving forward with any man.
After God spoke those words to me, I felt the need to watch a message I heard about on social media called “5 Keys To Identifying Your SoulMate” by pastor Toure Roberts. Watching that message brought tears to my eyes because it confirmed what I felt God was speaking to me. When you get a chance, I encourage you to watch this video at http://youtu.be/sJutjZ5mm9E and post a comment under this blog sharing what it spoke to you. Some may say the points in the message are unrealistic or old-fashioned but I believe it’s the path God desires for me to travel. How about you?